ok, so i got this letter from cal poly...and well...i got kicked out...
spring quarter really f'ed me up and got me down to academic probation...and then i fucked it up again by getting another F during summer quarter. i did get a B+ in my other class, but in terms of GPA, a B+ and an F just put me a bit deeper in the hole...
i'm allowed to stick around for the rest of the quarter...but after this quarter, i'm out...i'm not exactly sure if i'm out indefinitely or just for two quarters...but either way, its not something i'm proud about...
Good News
if i can ace all my classes this quarter, i can file for an appeal and get back in.
More Good News
i might have attention deficet disorder and/or dyslexia. ok, that's not exactly good news, haha, but its something that can help me in my appeal.
i've mentioned this to a few people, and some of them looked at me like i'm faking my possible diagnosis......i'm serious about this. this was something i wanted to look into a while ago but i was just never got around to actually getting tested.
i got a hold of a Preliminary Learning Disability Screening Questionaire from the Disabled Students Center...its kinda funny...check it out:
When following directions to an unfamiliar place, I easily get lost.
I look to Thomas Edison for inspiration. when asked if he felt discouraged about failying 1073 times before inventing the lightbulb, he said, "I did not fail 1,073 times. I found 1,073 ways not to do it." i know now that programming is not for me...so now i'm gonna look into Customer Relations Management in e-Business.
...and on a whole 'nother note...
Really, Really Bad News
Uncle Rolly passed away. ever since he was diagnosed, and with his worsening condition over the months, we all knew this was coming...but still, its a damn hard pill to swallow.
everytime i think about it, i cry...not necessarily because its the 3rd loss in my family in under a year (yes, Pube counts as family)...i cry for my auntie and my cousins, raynell & rose. i mean, i've gotten into some pretty big fights with my dad...but all of that seems so insignifcant to what raynell & rose are going through...i dunno what would happen if i lost my dad...especially at a young age...
Thinking Postively
my family has such a tight bond...and i'm so proud of it. like when jamie passed away, we were all worried for cristina and kainoa...especially since cristina is paralyzed from the waist down...
"Ohana means family; family means no one gets left behind."
but this amazing little thing that hawaiian's call "ohana" is so strong with us...you guys might've heard me when i bitch about going to my family get-togethers...cuz i always end up meeting a bagillion aunties & uncles that i never knew existed...i'm realizing now that this is a huge blessing -- there's always someone (usually several someones) around that'll support whoever...
kinda like the amish...if one of 'em has a house that burns down, the whole town comes together and builds a new one...
so yeah, its kinda like we're amish...except we're darker skinned, almond eyed, flat nosed and allowed to watch porn on hbo television...
"Ohana means family; family means no one gets left behind." - Lilo, from Lilo & Stich
